lily

where am I?

Is the title and that is the question,,, I'm at the low point of everything, i write this blog only to remind me in a few weeks/months/years how much of a struggle it was. I'm at a block as writers call it, everything in my life is up side down and i want it to be settled. My only outlet is mY work but the connector in my brain wont switch on to allow my creativity to give me some well needed peace. Today Ill force myself to work,, ill be chocked up, ill have no feeling, ill be numb, in a weeks time ill have forgot i even created it, i wont know what to do with it or where it belongs and it will feel like no more than a doodle..... so what do i need??? i need calm, i need support, i need balance?? things i don't think Ill ever get or ever deserve... so i go back and doodle for the day.... tomorrow ill share my doodles with you...


Doooodling x